My biggest regret is something I best keep to myself. I'm the only person who knows what my biggest regret is and I'd rather keep it that way to avoid exposing my selfishness. Let's just say that my biggest regret is something that lead to what's causing me problems right now and if I had been less ignorant, I could have avoided it. It's my own half-assedness' fault that I'm moping right now.
Which leads me to what I'm about to say.
Regret, regret, regret. It's like a disease. It's something that's almost irreparable unless you forget about it. Its' side effect is something I suffer from and have been suffering from since I can remember and that is self-hate.
Do you know what self-hate feels like? When your very soul seems to resent its own existence; when you feel like you want to cut yourself out of your skin and you feel like you're so small compared to these beings walking alongside you. Self-hate is so very very hard to get rid of and honestly, it's near impossible to do so.
No one's words will wipe away the blood that so profusely leaks from the wounds caused by self-hate. It's something that you have to fix yourself and to do that, your mentality has to be right. No matter how many times someone opposes your claims of the flaws you have, you can never really be convinced because you never really believe what anyone says.
I can't tell you my biggest regret but I can tell you the thing closest to it and it's the side effect of that regret. My second biggest regret is the self-hate that came with it.
Which leads me to what I'm about to say.
Regret, regret, regret. It's like a disease. It's something that's almost irreparable unless you forget about it. Its' side effect is something I suffer from and have been suffering from since I can remember and that is self-hate.
Do you know what self-hate feels like? When your very soul seems to resent its own existence; when you feel like you want to cut yourself out of your skin and you feel like you're so small compared to these beings walking alongside you. Self-hate is so very very hard to get rid of and honestly, it's near impossible to do so.
No one's words will wipe away the blood that so profusely leaks from the wounds caused by self-hate. It's something that you have to fix yourself and to do that, your mentality has to be right. No matter how many times someone opposes your claims of the flaws you have, you can never really be convinced because you never really believe what anyone says.
I can't tell you my biggest regret but I can tell you the thing closest to it and it's the side effect of that regret. My second biggest regret is the self-hate that came with it.
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